Accidental Jesus Freak 

One Woman's Journey from Fundamentalism to Freedom

From the Author of the Award-Winning Memoir, Not the Mother I Remember — an extraordinary story of love and faith and a unique window into the world of the 1970s Jesus Movement.

In 1973, Linda was a flute player and music major at a California community college, until she met and fell madly in love with a charismatic piano player, plunging into his world of music-making and drug-fueled parties. When, just three weeks after their wedding, he reveals that he’s been “born again,” Linda makes the decision to follow him into his new religion and, unwittingly, into a life of communal living, male domination, and magical thinking.  

With unflinching candor, Amber Starfire chronicles her journey as Linda Carr into the evangelical culture, where she gives up everything for her husband and their music ministry. But in the process, she loses her most valuable assets: her identity and sense of self-worth. It is only when Linda returns to live with her birth family and faces her complicated relationship with her mother that she finds new purpose and the courage to begin extricating herself from the limiting beliefs of her past.  

Paperback: February 2, 2018 • Ebook: March 2, 2018


"Starfire’s memoir is not just a courageous look at one woman’s awakening; it offers wisdom for all of us on how to recognize and claim our authentic selves, and create not just happiness, but lives that fulfill our hearts and spirits." 

— Susan J. Tweit, award-winning author, speaker, teacher  


Accidental Jesus Freak is the story of one woman, one marriage, and one kind of fundamentalism, but it is also the story of the healing that is possible when we are true to ourselves. Both a cautionary tale and celebration of personal empowerment, Accidental Jesus Freak is a powerful reminder for anyone who seeks to live a life authentic to who they truly are.  

Paperback version — 2/2/2018

ebook version — 3/2/2018

"Amber Starfire’s ability to bring home a young woman’s life through the trials of religious misanthropy, marriage and ulti-mately her quest for identity and meaning makes for a wonder-fully compelling and timely read. This is the journey of the femi-nine told with insight, vulnerability and honesty."

— Susan G. Weidener, author of Morning at Wellington Square, Again in a Heartbeat, and A Portrait of Love and Honor 

About the Author

Amber Lea Starfire is an author, editor, and writing coach in Napa, California. Her work has appeared nationally in anthologies and editorial publications. She holds an MFA in Creative Nonfiction from the University of San Francisco and an MA in Education from Stanford University.  

Her passion is to help others tell their stories, make meaning of life, and access their inner wisdom and creativity through the act of writing. Logo